Fortune Telling.

What's in store for me in the future, Fortune Teller?

There are people who are fond of fortune telling, some are fortune teller wannabe. Whatever their intentions are, this requires concentration, faith and patience.

...and yeah, I am a FAN of this. Just a fan. I don't wanna be among those "wanna bes". Here in my country Fortune Telling became one of the sources of income. Yeah, you better know how to classify the REAL and the FAKE. Normally, they ask for more money if you have a lot of unanswered questions. Well, the real ones, based on my experience, they just want to help you if you are struggling with something. It is up to you if you'd gladly return the favor. But they wont ask. They wont feel bad if you don't give them anything.

I was raised Catholic by my parents. We practice, as much as possible the teachings of the church. They don't believe in this. For them, we don't know what the future can really offer. But I really wanted to try different things.

I love reading horoscopes on the newspapers. They're like my little guide day to day. What should be my lucky color and stuffs. My mom would disagree but then, as time goes by, she let me be.

Then, dream interpretation! Yeah! This is my favorite! Like it is always correct, again on my personal experience and dreams are often warnings to you or a premonition. I have this habit that whenever I dream, when I wake up I try to remember it so I could have my friend interpret it for me. And it frustrates me that sometimes, the dreams are just bubbles that disappears on my memory. Like when I saw someone in my dream, I can really see the face and describe it but when I wake up, its like, uh..I don't know the face but he was handsome. Haha. Funny thing. 

And then when I had this job, I met an office mate, and now a friend who claims that he is a clairvoyant. At first I don't believe in him, though. But as I have said on my previous blogs...I am on a learning process with regards to trusting people. I was dealing with something back then. Then he asked me do you know that someone has sent a "guard" for you? Then, I was like, huh? really? I don't know. I was really scared that time! I never knew that such things would happen. I asked him if he could help me sent away those entities. I was glad that he agreed. And then, he did some "prayers" and some cleansing. And, yeah, I felt my aura was lifted. The feeling changed. The aura was not as heavy as before. My room brightened. I can sleep peacefully in my room.

Then the worst came, after 3 days. We are about to go on a "team outing" that time and I was losing my hair. Not to be exaggerated but yeah I was losing my hair and I felt that something's crawling on my head. He told me that he was dealing with the WITCH. The witch that put the curse on me. He said that it was mad because it can not enter my aura anymore. I don't know he can only understand this. Then I smell like an old lady. It was really weird and he kept on fighting the curse. 

In the end, he "defeated" the enemy and my life was back to normal again. It was not a easy as I thought it would be but I was really thankful that somebody helped me.


So as I mentioned, we went on a "Team Outing" and my office mate brought his fortune telling cards with him. It was like the cards knew me. All his personality readings about me were 90% correct. The past and the present. I still have to deal with the future. But when it comes to my love life, err...I don't know maybe I lose faith on the cards, it was wrong. And the readings did not happen. Not hard feelings, I knew deep in my heart that time that it was never going to happen.


Today, I am still in to fortune telling. I found something awesome online. But it requires really full concentration. My office mate and I were not in the same shift anymore so...yeah. My reading last night was fun! It was timely. The readings are happening in my life right now and I think, the cards wanted me to think carefully with regards in my decision making. A change is needed in my life. And I think I know what it is.


Again, things that have been said here are based on my personal opinions and experiences. I don't force you to believe. You have your own way of thinking and I will leave it at that.  

Random.

When I graduated last year, I was really happy. I was waiting for this moment to arrive for so long! At last! No more quizzes, no more homework, no more sleepless nights just doing your projects. But then it struck me that, THIS IS IT. Now is the time to prove your worth and ability. 

I've experienced going to one job fair to another to find a job. I wanted a job suitable for me and will make me grow and help me achieve my personal goals. I was not hired the first time. I felt it was like discriminated. But it is the past. Part of learning process.

I applied the second time and it was a success. I was at the recruitment center for hours but it was a really fruitful day.

Congratulations, you have passed our recruitment process. Please do your medical and attend your ops validation at 7AM tomorrow.

I can still remember the exact words 11 months back. Yes, I am working in a BPO Industry. "Call Centers" in the most usual term. I have no issues working on this field. It was my first. It was a major adjustment when the training started. I had to be awake at night and be a sleep in daytime. Coffee was really a best friend.

I had a chance to meet new groups of people. They are all different in all ways. One is overly sensitive and tends to over react at things. The sub trainer who is too one sided and very polygamous. Hell yeah. Bring it on. This is the real world now. I just have to adjust. Anyway, we'll be distributed once our nesting begins.

My "for-the-meantime" manager is so-so. She was an average for me. She sometimes tend to do a lot of stuffs for herself rather assist her new agents. During that time, I was really looking forward to next week. We have met our permanent manager. I think he'll do better than this manager.

He was stout and "konyo" looking. I really got intimidated by his presence. He loves laughing and laughing. He walks around a lot. But you will know if the Manager is really doing his job. He is short tempered but cool outside work.

Months have passed and everyday working  with my Manager was a good shift. He scolds us sometimes but I can see that he really is learning how to control his temper. The aloofness I felt at first was now a thing of the past. It is really true that you have to know the person first. I was surprised that simple things make him smile or glad. He cherish his friends so well. There was a moment when I was broken and empty my Manager was there, holding my hand and supporting, listening and giving me advice. I never  thought that we will become that close. He was really a good friend.

But everything has an end...even the good ones. He has too leave for a greener pasture. He got promoted. I really felt like, "OK, I AM ALONE ON THIS AGAIN." It is not like I was not happy for his promotion. Its just that I am sad that he has to leave. So soon that I haven't prepared for it yet. He believed in me...on my skills. He knows that I can make it without him. He doing really good now with his new program. I know. Up to now, I still miss him. My friend, my brother, my manager. I miss his laughs and the stories we share during lunch. He is the only person on my team that really knows me. There are things that only two people can relate to. You don't need to explain everything because he knows it by HEART.

Now, another chapter in my life is about to take a turn. It is up to me if I stay or go. I really have to make a choice and I am doing it step by step. I just hope that everything will fall into place.

Working in a BPO industry has a lot ups and downs. Nothing is permanent. You just have to adapt with the current situation. I have experienced being transferred to one LOB to another. You have to have a lot of courage, patience, faith and strength to survive. It is the battlefield of the one who is willing to take the risk or the one who is willing to be left behind. Tough experiences will mold you to be a better and stronger person. This field of work taught me things that you can't learn at home or school. But at the end of the day, you know within you, what to do, when to do and how to do it.